Sunday, July 19, 2009
I love action. Not necessarily action movies or that type of action. Although as a child I would have preferred almost anything to Gone With the Wind or Seven Brides for Seven Brothers. But I love the reality of movement, work, and completion. Life just doesn't make sense to me unless there's motion.
I also find that without a strong purpose and passion options are debilitating. Do you know what a factorial is? I read in an article in one of my economics books that every time you shuffle a deck of cards it is most likely the first time that arrangement has existed, ever. This is because there are 52 factors or cards that can be arranged 8.06581752 × 10^67 ways . . . I do not understand how many factors there are in my life. One reason is because the more I learn the more factors are introduced into my life--more cards to be arranged. I don't even know how to classify the factors in my life. David McCullough has said multiple times and I agree that nothing ever had to happen the way it happened. There are too many options, too many combinations every day of how something could turn out. I do not have the capacity to goal set my way through these options. Even on my desk right now are easily over 100 items. Scissors, belts, pens, tons of individual papers, books, pictures, vitamin E, a printer, a fan, a copy of the Virginia Gazette containing the Declaration of Independence, keys, 3 medals, movies, items forever going on! So yes, I believe in duty, but options without passion for me is corrupting. I could look online and call all the friends I know in 50 states about possible jobs in the 150+ career fields in America but what the heck? The only way I know how to deal with the infinite is by moving foward in faith, doing what I have have been given to want.
"How exciting it could be. And even if it failed, we'd find out something, learn from our mistakes. We have to be ever inventive, take chances. The only people who don't make mistakes are people who don't do anything. We have to be careful about getting stale, about lazily, timidly falling back on formula." --David McCullough