Monday, August 16, 2010

I'm in Provo. I just came from the Black Hills of South Dakota. It was a wonderful time there and I'm grateful for it; but, what isn't there to be grateful for in my life? It seems like everything works for my good, or some body's good.

While in South Dakota I worked at Mount Rushmore as a Intern Park Ranger. And because I only earned $15 a day I got a second job in Keystone working at a fudge shop! Ha! Imagine that. This entire summer was a sacred enough experience that I probably won't talk about it with people. Sure, I'll tell them what I did and how great it was. But how can you talk about something you don't understand, or is so custom fitted that its explanation wouldn't fit any one else? Whatever this summer was I don't know if I'll ever get it back again. But that's ok, there'll be more of life's tender mercies and I don't believe life will now progress into a decrescendo. But it was an experience through and through and I couldn't have made it happen if I had a thousand years of planning. And I don't think I care one bit whether I deserved it, or whether it was prudent, or whether any goals were accomplished. I don't care what was accomplished; or, anything really - it felt good and right and sure enough it was good and right. I wasn't looking for much.

And here I am a year later in Provo. It seems a year ago I was heading out to Maine. I knew things were off then, but I didn't know how to work to fix them. Now a year has gone by and a lot has been fixed. . . I should have stepped out of the way earlier.

From what I've learned so far - I've got no plans, or as Abraham Lincoln said: My policy is that I have no policy. I am going to deal with my situations as I find them, with the relevant data I possess at that time. So, it will be 2 years of graduate work, and that will be fun.


monica said...

i just realized this was your blog. i forgot you had one. i thought it was another friend of mines blog who has a similar blog title as you do. you are such a stranger to me now. im glad you had a great time in south dakota. you wouldnt BELIEVE what my life is up to. i dont even believe it! take care!

Kate said...

I had no idea you had updated your blog - I am pleased and will now go back to checking for updates 2-3x a day ;).

HRH said...

This is a very good blog and an excellent blog post. I like your grateful attitude and your take on seeing life as exciting and hopeful. Things worked out pretty well for Abe (except for that incident at Ford's Theatre) so I bet they will for you!:) - Megan, HRH

Jessica Tingey said...

this sounds like "super oliver!"